People don’t see how much one day can change your whole life. How much we take advantage of what we have because we don’t know what can happen by tomorrow. Through my eyes, I never thought that I would get this sick in my life. One thing is having a cold, but I have something deeper. I have Cancer. It kills me inside everyday having to pretend that I’m okay, that this is nothing big, but it is. I thought that this was it; maybe this was happening for a reason, for some mistake it happened to me. No one knows why things happen or why. All we can do is try to make it better. For me, that’s not easy. I see life in a different perspective and see how these young kids, who have far more worse cases than I, suffer in agony with only hope in their hearts. I envy these kids. There doing something that I could never do. Something that I can’t even do now. I want to believe that everything is okay and that everything will be changed soon, but I can’t. I have to tell my friends that I’m dying. That’s not something you want to tell people. I love all my friends very deeply and care about them so much. I hope one day they understand that I’m fighting this alone. No one’s words can change that. I’m alone. I’m a balloon, a balloon tied to an anchor.

(Source: losingthe-war, via letsmeetunderthestars)